Change has been on my mind a lot recently, probably due to the fact that I am living in Utah again. Some of the biggest changes and adjustments in my life occurred while living in Utah, such as moving out of my home of 18 years, living with people who weren't my family, interacting with a predominantly LDS population, paying bills, learning and studying with students who weren't my 2 older sisters, and attending church with only 18-30 year olds.
Some of these things have since become the norm. I'm so used to singles wards that when I occasionally attend a family ward, I feel like I'm sitting in a parakeet cage. Have kids always been that noisy? I'm not only used to taking classes with random strangers, I love it. And the bills? It's the one thing in life I can count on to be consistent.
I'm distinctly aware of changes in my appearance. Who knew that after 4 years I'd change so much? I try not to let it get to me, but it does. It's like I have a clock ticking behind my subconscious, sending me time checks every time I look in the mirror. How long have those bags been there? When did that wrinkle start forming between my eyebrows? And when will that stupid, stubborn gray hair right on my hairline be joined by another?
The only thing that makes me feel better is looking at pictures of Kate Middleton. She's 35 and still a fox. But then again, I've never been a fox to begin with, so with some diet, exercise, salicylic acid and hair dye the best I become is a mildly attractive jackal.
I never did any of those things while I was in Provo. I was too chicken, and expected the guys to somehow know of my existence and ask me out randomly.
Well I am proud to say that I am no longer chicken! They say you should be like the person you want to date, and I don't want to date a chicken. I want a date someone who isn't afraid to say, "hey, I think you're cool, let's go on a date." So I have started asking the guys out. Last year I started with group dates with my friends, but I have since graduated to single dates. That's right! A couple weeks ago I straight up asked a dude out on a single date. We will probably not go out again, but it was an empowering experience and I plan on doing it again.
Send me a message if you know of any eligible bachelors in Utah County! To give you an idea of my type, here is my list of top 5 hottest dudes, in looks AND personality:
|Coach Taylor from Friday Night Lights|
Smash all these men together and voila!: my perfect man. That's not asking too much, right?